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[ happy birthday ]
Thursday, March 31, 2005

happy birthday to my kor kor~! its kinda late cuz i tried to access blogspot at around 11 but server down i think.. so here i am :D

Presentation was good, although the independant marker(IM) asked a lot questions, but she only ask a bit of questions for mine.. :D so kinda lucky whahaha think should be able to get a 'B' or 'C', now its pass 12 midnight, means 'later' i having french test, sianz lucky in front all my test all pass so still can afford to do badly for this one :D my E-quiz i got 24/30 and the e-quiz is like 15% of the overall grade~ and my oral also good so this written test can afford a just pass grade whahaa, of cuz i hope for more marks la but then seems like i wun be able to since i am blogging and not studying -.-" but heck la since i going to sleep soon.. maybe after a round of NBA live then i go sleep liao le ba.. yawns

by hong ; 12:44 AM

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[ presentation 'later' ]
Wednesday, March 30, 2005

oh well, i will be having my project presentation 'later' :D 2pm at L532... please wish me good luck :)

by hong ; 12:58 AM

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[ lazy blogger ]
Friday, March 25, 2005

omg, its been exactly 1 week since i last blogged.. getting lazier le :| anyway, wed took lab test.. gonna die lor, 2 hours of lab test but we spent 1 hour++++ to solve the .NET environment error thingy... and guess wad, we are only given an extra 30 mins to complete the lab test.. everything was screwed!!!! oh well~ lets just hope i can pass with flying colours, my written test already flung like hell le, so can't afford to flung this lab test!! oh today found out that i got into internet and mobile computing specialisation track for year 3!! my bro asked me to go into that but that was my 2nd choice.. maybe just fated~ haha today got back my OS quiz, I PASS!!! mabbe not with great score but at the very least i passed by 1 mark lor!!! thats 20% of my overall grade :D lucky me!! haha got 11 out of 20 possible score LOL mabbe its just pure luck or wad, well heck it... pass can le :D now is good friday, no class for me 'later' which is like 8 hours later hahaha shiok but next week gotta present, gotta go back sch pia project on saturday and monday le.. but monday i think most labs closed for presentation haiz so hope that phase 2 of my project can be completed ASAP, then i cna get on to help jun with her integration.. **JUN i noe u are going crazy over this project, please please do understand that i am struggling too, not that i dun wanna help :( promise to help if i am able to complete it, YOU MUST HANG ON!!!! :P

by hong ; 12:22 AM

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[ back to gunbound ]
Friday, March 18, 2005

going back to gunbound days(for those who dunno wads gunbound, its an online game :D) very sick of games that i played recently le... NBA live, WORMS!!! -.-" anyway dl finish but i can't play cause of some virus thingy.. dunno wad trojan.win32.agent.38061 OMG lucky cong ming de wor found the solution liao :D sianz hope it works, just dl finish the solution file haiz

by hong ; 10:36 PM

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[ happy birthday ]
Monday, March 14, 2005

happy birthday to MISS KOO YIEN SHAN and CINDY SIM!!! may both of you dreams come true and stay happy always always~ :D

yien shan, remember u said b4 u also wan to have the same treatment as her rite?? here it goes(takes deep breath):

happy birthday to you
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:)

by hong ; 12:33 AM

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[ its so dirty ]
Friday, March 11, 2005

i suddenly feel that in this world and era that i am in, there's no true love.. i suddenly feel that love is so dirty, its not as pure as i thought.. and not as 'dan chun' as i make it out >.< i really dunno whats wrong with this world, especially after reading my kor's blog.. bout his friend, i feel love is no longer as secure as it is, love is no longer something that one should look forward to.. it's no longer something that i am looking very forward to, and i also feel its something that i should not be involved with at this period of time.. where my perception of love is so bad and so disgusting, it seems that a lot of guys, their mindset of a relationship is very very different from how i thought of TRUE LOVE (emphasizing TRUE), they seem to go into relationship for the sake of intimacy, for the sake of having someone to hold, someone to hug, someone to go out with... put it short, they go in a relationship for the sake of fucking.. ok put it short and nice, they go into a relationship for the sake of 'making love'.. take note that i added '' for making love, because making love and fucking is 2 different things, making love involves emotion and feelings whereas fucking involves just a hole and a pole -.-" and now it seems like many pple went into a relationship for the latter, its so disappointing.. SO DISAPPOINTING!!!! now i feel so alienated from the rest of the guys in these world.. i feel that i belong to the minority that still believes in true love, whereas the majority believes in true sex... i feel so disgusted the way love has evolved into!! and it freaks me out a lot.. i feel so lost!!! argh...

by hong ; 11:23 PM

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[ as requested ]
Wednesday, March 09, 2005

as requested by miss koo yien shan i shall continue on this part :D

~~RELATIONSHIP FACTS PT2~~
1. I enjoy being nagged at in a relationship, but not too much!!!
2. I dun really nag at my spouse :)
3. I am attracted to girls who can dance well (CIARA ROX)
4. I dun mind girls who are older then me.. but max 4 yrs older then me :D
5. I wun like girls who are too young (at least at this age i wun)
6. I prefer chinese ladies to other races if i were to find a spouse (i am not racist)
7. My spouse must not mind me being childish :D
8. My spouse cannot disallow females to contact me.. I HAVE LOTS OF FEMALE FRIENDS, SO DUN COME TELLING ME 'ASK THEM DUN CONTACT YOU'
9. I hope my spouse allows me to look at girls :D cuz i will allow my spouse to look at guys :)
10. I dun expect sms from her everyday.. but sms about 4-6 days a week will do ;)

btw for point no. 9, there's only generally 2 types of humans that we see, the very very very very beautiful and handsome type.. and the disgusting and ugly type :D beautiful things are meant to be seen.. so why restrict your partner? if she/he is meant to be yours, than no matter how beautiful a lady is or how handsome a guy is on a street wun make her/him go gaga right?? i mean i feel that my spouse should be happy that i look at girls and not guys -.-"

by hong ; 12:03 AM

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[ letting go ]
Tuesday, March 08, 2005

tian xia he chu wu fang cao, he bi dan lian yi zhi hua?? now i really feel that i should let go.. i can see the difference between us and i can see that we are impossible.. for now~ somehow feels that we drifted apart a lot, maybe because of project stuffs ba.. i have been very very busy with my projects recently, and she has also been busy rushing projects out recently.. that may be able to explain the decrease in sms-es between us, maybe i must really let go now, things have changed.. i dun feel as close to her as compared to last time, i feel as if she is going to be attach... AGAIN!!! if this time she really gets attach then it would be the 5th relationship i saw her through.. been about 1 year plus liao, how long more do i have to wait??? i really should let go rite?! its not intelligent for me to wait for something that wasn't meant to happen rite? its time i let go of this grass and look for other grasses rite??? i really dunno.. GOD PLEASE GIVE ME AN ANSWER!!!!

by hong ; 11:29 PM

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[ abt me!! ]
Saturday, March 05, 2005

~~20 BASIC FACTS~~
1) I eat a lot when i am in an extreme mood, for e.g. when i am extremely happy or extremely angry, but sometimes i just feel like eating :D so mind me..
2) I DON'T LIKE CHOCOLATES, not saying i don't eat them.. but i just don't like to eat them :)
3) I study IT but i HATE PROGRAMMING!!
4) I hate backstabbers and liars, then again.. who likes them? =X ok i simply HATE liars, i mean those who are my friends yet not being truthful to me.. it's either you be truthful to me or you lie to me *forever* dun even let me suspect
5) I need 12 hours of sleep so that i won't say "i am tired" for the next 6 hours.
6) When i play pool or basketball, it depends on my mood and "hui-ling", no "hui-ling" i cannot play well =D ("hui-ling" = feeling)
7) I get sick of computer games easily..
8) My heart goes soft like cotton when i see cute girls cry.. and of cuz the one that i love cry will have same effect.
9) I don't like sudden notices.
10) I have a marital status : COMMITED!! =D
11) I hate people who late, my maximum waiting time is as follows : 1 1/2 hours for best buddy, 1 hour for best frens, the rest please don't make me wait more then 40 mins, i will get angry and kp you.
12) I don't despise on gays/les/bi, they are humans, if we can accept cats and dogs in our live, why not them?
13) I don't like the sight of people kissing too aggresively as if they are going to fuck right in front of me, for goodness sake, do those things in private please.. a slight kiss not more then 1 mins is acceptable.
14) But then again, i will kiss aggresively if my spouse wants to =X
15) I am not good at consoling people if i have no mood for it, but i am forever there to console my best buddy and best friends
16) I spend a lot if i have too much cash with me.
17) I LOVE DOGS
18) I show how i feel easily, be it happy or sad or angry :)
19) I like to stay overnight with friends, chalet or stay over at friend's house will be good for me :D
20) I laugh loud and naturally :D

~~10 RELATIONSHIP FACTS~~
1) I believe in give and take in a relationship, don't expect me to give 100% in the relationship if you are not putting in effort to maintain it.
2) I will trust my spouse a lot, no point going into a relationship when there is no trust between each other.. i definitely will give my spouse 100% trust..
3) I don't mind my spouse going out with guys 1 to 1, provided she ask/tells me about it and provided things don't go outta hand.
4) I won't give up my friends for my spouse (see below for frens fact)
5) I hope my spouse won't have to call me up and telling me she is lost somewhere, expecting me to pick her up, this is a very small matter! for goodness sake, take a taxi~ if no $$ than take taxi to find me, i will pay one.. unless you are really lost at somewhere no taxi no road name, then dun expect me to find you too soon.
6) I don't talk about $$ in a relationship, we share that.
7) Never ask me to choose between my mum and you, you won't like the answer :)
8) There is a difference between DOTING and LOVING, i most probably won't dote on you.. but that dosen't mean i don't love you too.
9) I don't want my spouse to give up her friends for me.
10) I celebrate valentines day if i have a spouse, don't tell me rubbish like everyday is valentines day.. thats another way of saying there is no valentines day.

~~10 FRIENDS FACT~~
1) I won't give up my spouse for my friends, they are both equally important to me.
2) If i say i treat you something, let me treat you.. don't tell me 'pai seh' and all those crap, if you're my friend, you will know i don't 'kay gao' small $$
3) My jokes are forever funny!! laugh at them even if you know what i am going to say next :P
4) I have a hierachy system on the friends list, my best buddy is on the top of the list so don't even think of trying to take over him, its impossible.
5) To be my friends, you have to be able to take my jokes too.. its something thats born in me, something called an INBORN ABILITY
6) Don't ask me out too often if you are not close with me, i will most probably find you irritating and reject your kind offer.
7) Don't match-make me with other girls if you are my friend.. I SIMPLY HATE being MATCH-MAKED with someone i have no interest in.
8) If you are my friend, lend me $$ if you have it!! =X
9) I am not a god damn salivasist, so please do not take an extra straw if you wanna drink my share of drinks, just use mine if you are not a salivasist.
10) I get close with female friends easily compared to male friends, but the top 2 on my list right now are both male :)

~~10 STUDIES FACT~~
1) My favourite subject in sec sch is Chinese and D & T
2) I can't do maths
3) My programming SUCKS
4) I am a damn slacker, but will buck up when its time to.
5) Don't ask me to help you if you don't wanna help me.
6) If i know i will be late for my class, i won't go.
7) I don't bring programming stuffs home to do, even if i have the program.
8) I only hope for my friends to excel in their studies, other than that, i hope you will fail badly.
9) I hope my best friends will call me out on Saturdays and Sundays, but if i am not interested in your program, don't try to psycho me.
10) Don't hang up my call even if we are quarrelling.

~~5 HATE/SCARED FACTS~~
1) I am afraid of coackrouches aka xiao qiang.
2) I hate liars.
3) I am scared of ghost.
4) I hate people talking behind my back, do it infront of my face if you wanna bitch about me!!
5) I hate being in a difficult position, so put me in one.

~~5 LOVE/LIKE FACTS~~
1) YES, I am a bloody narcissist, i simply love taking pictures even though i am not good looking :D
2) I love basketball and pool, i can't give up them.
3) I LOVE DOGS (as mentioned above)
4) I like people telling me they miss me :D but you better mean it or you are in violation of hate fact number 2!!
5) I LOVE MY MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS AND OF CUZ HER!!

i have nothing better to do -.-"

by hong ; 12:39 AM

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[ yesh!!! finally completed 60% ]
Friday, March 04, 2005

yeah~ my 3 tiered web application is 60% completed.. attach materials part is 90% then the rest is just 50% and got one undone yet LOL but today show wad i have to Miss Eunice Ang.. she said GOOD ^-^ HAPPY LIKE HELL!! i mean at least i work so hard and it paid off lor.. of cuz wanna thank hui yue for helping my SQL statements work in inserting stuffs to my database.. and also thanks to melvin for telling me how the attach things work and spend some time explaining the codes to me.. and also cynthia :D really damn damn damn damn happy.. but dunno how my group members do.. miss eunice like not very happy with erwin one leh.. and jun also, scared wait they fail i pass.. then i feel guilty liao, now i just hope that hui yue can cope with hers, cuz she seem to be struggling with some of her codes, and i dunno how to help her also.. just pray and hope all my frens will pass their project with flying colours lor.. this year is a tought project year for us, groups being split into dunno wad shit.. then those codings have to learn ourselves.. for e.g. attach things to upload on our hard disk is something i nv learn b4.. then i have to do e-mail.. which means the web app will send email to pple -.-" also nv learn b4 haiz.. left 4-5 more weeks to presentation..
***GOD, PLEASE BLESS MY GROUP, MELVIN, HUI YUE AND CYNTHIA GROUP, EUGENE'S GROUP TO DO WELL IN THIS PROJECT.. I DUN WAN ANY OF THEM TO FAIL ANY MODULE, ESPECIALLY THIS ONE >.<>

by hong ; 6:05 PM

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